Colossians 2:7 NLT
Let your roots grow down into him, and let your lives be built on him. Then your faith will grow strong in the truth you were taught, and you will overflow with thankfulness.
First and foremost I hope everyone’s first two months of 2016 have been prosperous. I pray that if you did not have that relationship with God or you were not as close to him as before, you are now. I also pray that The Lord is working in your life and you are faithful to him and his word. It has been a while since my last blog post and I have grown a lot. I have been growing into the young women God has called me to be, by being in his word, praying and worshipping. Yes, I have slipped up and let the temptations get the best of me, but I’ve gotten back on track. God always tells me that the little things I do can build up to actions in the future and lead me down a path I do not want to go down. I have more strength than I did before and I am learning lessons through situations that God has put me in. I am realizing and opening my eyes to new opportunities and being faithful where I am at.
Psalms 139:24 NLT
Point out anything in me that offends you, and lead me along the path of everlasting life
Like I said since the end of December and coming into the new year I have been working on myself. I needed to ask God to pull out the stuff I knew he did not like that was in me and that was my attitude, my pride, lust and my own thoughts. I had to ask him for strength and to have the desire for his ways and not my own. I got to the point where I was just tired of doing the same thing. At main service one Sunday my senior pastor, Pastor Sam Carr, was preaching how we cannot live in sin. Yes, we will make mistakes every day because we are not perfect people, but we cannot continue to do what is wrong on a daily basis, knowing that it is wrong, and expect a blessing from God. I had a wakeup call! I needed to stop playing around with God and ask for help in certain areas of my life. I needed to be honest with God and humble myself. Now let’s get back to it, every day I have to ask God to fix my heart and soften my heart, because I can catch an attitude real quick for no reason, and that is when I have to pray quickly. I say, “God I give you my mind and my attitude, let me respond in a way that you would Father, do not let my flesh cause me to hurt someone else.” Many things can cause me to get an attitude, when I am annoyed or impatient or when someone says or does something and I am like,“Really, really, why?” God tells me that I have to grow up and everything does not revolve around Shay or what I want. Reality check for me! I also tend to get prideful over things, as in the way I look, my appearance, the way people see me and what they expect of me. I always feel like I have to do this and that because I feel like people hold me to a higher standard that I just cannot accomplish. Sometimes I can be a people pleaser and I never want to fail people or disappoint them. I ask God to fix my heart fast about those thoughts because the only standards I need to meet are Gods. Before 2016 my mind was on thoughts it had no business on and I didn’t control them, I just used to build on those thoughts. I also worried about little stuff and situations I could not control. I let my thoughts get so heavy weighted and I contemplated so long on things that happened a week or even a month before and it was just a burden. And I’ve been having a better control over my thoughts and actions, with the help of God. But, it is still hard and at times I can still let my thoughts drain me, but not as much as before. I have joy in my life; I am joyful because I know God has my back. He is leading me to bigger things that I cannot imagine. I am at peace with myself and I am maturing in God and who I am.
James 1:4 NLT
So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be perfect and complete needing nothing.
Notice how I said that I am growing. And like I said before I have fallen, but I got back on path. All God wants is for us to bloom in him, he doesn’t expect us to change overnight. We need to take the time to flourish in our relationship with God; we need to get to know him. We need to Pray, Read, and Worship. We have to activate all three, in order to progress in our relationship with God. We want to grow, but we never want to grow in the things that matter. We tend to want to strengthen that addiction or relationship we have no business in or friendship that is sucking the life out of us. Do not try to advance in things you know you have no business putting time and energy in. The Lord has better for us, but we have to want it for ourselves. Expand in the things that matter like God, church, healthy relationships, and yourself. Growth is a part of life, and in order to develop in our self we must thrive in God.